It had happened…again. I’d sworn it wouldn’t happen, but it had. And I’d just recently made the promise again. I’d cried out to God during my morning prayers, promising to do better, to be more careful. This wasn’t the first time I’d confessed this weakness. I’d wrestled with this temptation again and again.
What kind of a person was I that I’d fall so easily back into the middle of temptation? My repeated lapses made me wonder if I was even a believer.
Those were dark days. But coming through them has given me confidence.
Not in myself…never in me. But in God.
He was always there to pick me up when I fell, always waiting to extend grace and give me another go. I was the one who struggled with shame and condemnation. And that condemnation NEVER came from Him.
Oh don’t get me wrong. I know it hurt Him when I gave in to sin. But He didn’t return that hurt with punishment. He returned it with patience, grace, and love. I discovered I couldn’t out-sin His mercy.
Do I still struggle? You better believe it. But I’m quicker to admit my failings, and less willing to listen to the false guilt that comes from my enemy.
So now, those who are in Christ Jesus are not judged guilty. Through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit that brings life made you free from the law that brings sin and death.
Satan lashes my soul with guilt, but God extends infinite grace.
Edie Melson—author, editor and blogger—is a leading professional within the writing industry, as well as a popular instructor and mentor. Her heart to help others define and reach their dreams has connected her with writers across the country.
She’s the director of the Blue Ridge Mountains Christian Writers Conference, and a prolific writer, with numerous books and thousands of articles. Her latest book, While My Child is Away: My Prayers for When We Are Apart, has just been released and is already in its second printing. Her popular writing blog, The Write Conversation, is a well known resource. Edie is the Social Media Director for Southern Writers Magazine, senior editor for Novel Rocket, and the social media mentor for My Book Therapy websites. She’s a graduate of Christian Communicators Conference and is the military family blogger for Guideposts.org. Connect with her on Twitter and Facebook.