Broadway courtesy of Freedigitalphotos.net

Broadway courtesy of Freedigitalphotos.net

If you google Broadway, you get a gazillion hits about great New York City theatre, casting directors, and superstar bios.

But not long ago, a family outing took me on a ride down the other Broadway, Broadway in Brooklyn—a far cry from neon lights, stardom, and fortune. It was a sobering ride down the episodic memory lane of my life before age eight.

Violence

Greene Avenue: The house where, at age three, I sat at the kitchen table, atop two New York City telephone books, and witnessed abuse so intense that I wondered if I would have bruises just for having seen such a sight.

Death

Madison Street: Where my father and my uncle were found dead on the same night from an IV-drug overdose.

Fear

Quincy Street: Where I attended second grade and performed in the musical, Oliver Twist, the same year I was scared to death of being orphaned because my father was already dead.

Today as I look at my daughter, now at that same elementary age, I find myself saying, Thank God she hasn’t had to suffer any of that. I’m so glad she has no experiential context for what I felt on that family outing.

Then I have to catch myself and remember something my husband and I have talked about a number of times—our inability to protect our precious little girl from whatever God chooses to draw her to Himself. Truthfully, I’m almost afraid to admit I understand this and that I understand it on a fairly deep level.

 

I would rather think of my Kaki as an uncontrolled ball of giggles and laughter who wears polka dots and stripes on Picture Day and pink and lavender on Wacky Dress Day. I don’t ever want to consider what the sobering of real life issues would do to her Michael Strahan smile.

Likewise, I would never want her to enter adulthood unprepared to take a sucker punch or to know how to handle disappointment. And I hate the idea of her thinking God is only powerful when no opposing forces are around. That would be a cheap facsimile of real faith in real life.

The truth of the matter is I would be a completely different person were it not for those events I was reminded of on that ride down Broadway, and without them I’d probably never find myself writing or speaking about anything meaningful. My outer shell may reveal trauma, but my inner self, my soul, sings for my Savior—for what He did not withhold, for the grit through which my story shines, for my all-rightness despite what was clearly not right  . . .  over and over again.

From the Lord comes deliverance . . . ~ Psalm 3:8

Sherry Boykin

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