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Okay, I admit it.

I’ve failed. Many times. But the good news is, God can take my messes and use them for His glory…if I’ll let Him.

It all depends on what I do with my failures.

As speakers, we can either work really hard to hide our frailties and present the illusion of perfection, or we can admit our struggles and present the answer to our need. The truth is, our success as sharers of the Gospel can depend on what we do with our failures.

I’m blessed as a speaker. I know that. God has given me more opportunities to speak than I ever imagined…and I know I don’t deserve it. But if I could be so bold, I hope you’ll hear from my heart when I say that I fully believe He has blessed my ministry because of my willingness to admit my failures, while also pointing to the answer for them.

My first huge failure was in my marriage. And the first time God called me to speak, He took me kicking and screaming into giving my testimony about that journey. Oh, I did not want to do it! I didn’t want the women of my church to know how I had treated Gary before they knew me. They saw me as a godly Christian woman who loved the Lord with all her heart, and I wanted it to stay that way.

But God wouldn’t leave me alone, and I finally obeyed His call. And I came home from that event knowing what I was created for!

Then He showed me how I had failed in His call to holiness, that I had adopted the world’s standards as my own, rather than follow His command to be like Christ. That message was soon shared with the women of my church, too, along with the prescription to use Philippians 4:8 as a filter verse for everything I allowed into my heart and mind, and out of my mouth.

He took me to my struggles with pride, raising children, and taming my tongue. And every one of those topics became topics for me to speak and write about.

But the process isn’t limited to non-fiction. Many of my own areas of sin have ended up in my Christian Living book and my novels: lying, manipulation, anger, and unforgiveness.

So, do you want to have more opportunities to write and/or speak for Him? Admit your failures. After all, we’re in good company. Consider what Paul said in Romans 7:

I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do…For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Romans 7:15, 18-19 (NIV)

If Paul could voice his struggle, don’t you think we should, too?

God is calling each of us to be proclaimers of His truth. Not because we’re perfect, but because we serve the God who is. Admit your failures…and then point to the One and Only answer for them.

Grace and peace,

Vonda